Thursday, April 20, 2017

Object of Attraction: Part 1 of 10 A Short Story Series

A nerdy kid named Tommy in high school always was afraid to approach girls in his class. He lacked the confidence. He tells the story of many kids in high school he was picked on a lot. Tommy like a girl in particular, but he was unsure if she even noticed him. He spent most of his time playing video games and most of the time studying and reading books. He was into Science and he wanted to be a doctor.
    When kids picked on him, they called him a nerd like Luke Gallows or Karl Anderson would call someone for in WWE. Tommy was a fan of the Revenge of the Nerds series. He felt he was cool, but he might of thought that, but he wasn’t cool with the ladies. Every time he talked he stumbled his words and didn’t know what to say. Everyone picked on him and made fun of him.
    Women even made believed they liked him by telling him the story keep trying you’ll find someone, but they all laughed in his face.
    Then one day out of the blue he saw this one girl stunning and beautiful she was a ten on the scale and she paid attention him he stuttered didn’t know what to say. He was thinking ahead of himself. She started to stick up for him, but she was with someone. Her name was Sue.
    Another person grew a liking to him He was a social outcast to. He wore a ripped up leather jacket. He was just barely passing even though he was smart. He always rebelled against authority and even rebelled against his classmates. His role model was Dean Ambrose from the WWE. He didn’t like anyone getting teased or bullied and he saw Tommy constantly getting picked on and he saw he needed help with women. But he didn’t know that Tommy liked his girl and was going after her. And Tommy didn’t know that was her girl. His name is “Unstable” James Osborne. The rumor about him was he was Super Dave Osborne’s son, but no one knew he lived his life a mystery. He was from school to school and he had a thing for muscle cars.  
   One day something happened where "Unstable" James just snapped, he saw something that irritated him. He was always unstable, this day he showed it. He was pissed that Tommy got picked on again they kept putting him down and he wouldn't have it anymore. The friendship between Unstable James and Tommy started. And then James asked Tommy to take a ride in his 1975 Camaro and he picked up his girlfriend and to Tommy's surprise Unstable James girlfriend was his Object of Attraction and she followed him.
   To James surprise both Tommy and Sue knew each other. This is where the story begins.
I will keep you posted more on this 10 part series.

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Bullying and It's Effects

Perhaps we all have gone to far. Perhaps we just go to the lengths and keep going. Yeah we joke amongst our friends. And yeah we joke with relationships and we only hurt one another and keep hurting one another because we just keep that hurt going.

Rather someone has been called weird, stupid, dumb, idiot, prick, douche, or anything and then we come across that way. Someone views us for who we truly are not and the hate keeps on coming because someone has to go through the hurt because the one who hurts, hurts more then ever. People don't know that pain and they may never and they react or even kill.

Everything in this world is filled with that hate now a days rather it is something in this world or maybe we are picked on because we are different, you know Hitler also wanted to abolish everyone who was different for what. Under his reign I or many people I know would have never been born. And they wipe out people who were different.

Imagine a world without an Albert Einstein, an Abraham Lincoln, a Steve Jobs. Imagine a world without Nikola Tesla, or a world without a George Washington or an Oprah Winfrey. Each person and more faced challenges, but had to overcome their challenges under Hitler they would not been born, under hate they would not have been born.

They were weird, they were different and we all have challenge maybe its a social problem Winston Churchill had that to. But gangs build up and put someone down and everyone is afraid to speak up because they are afraid of changing the status quo and afraid of what everyone might do. They are afraid for fear of what might happen to them. They are afraid to tell the truth for what the other may say or anything they are afraid to be honest. Sure people might say something to hurt and may have no filter, but they are honest. Shouldn't honesty be respected. And it's true we get offended and it's true we may feel hurt by all of it, but maybe we all are hurt and we are trying to find for a better tomorrow. Maybe no matter what we believe good or bad we are hoping for a better tomorrow even from our worst enemies they also hope for a better tomorrow. But no one cares we are all tied in to ourselves at times and we are all tied to dramas of those close and we may just react without knowing the truth and that is the other side of the world even us takes our hate to the extreme. We are afraid. We are afraid to truly be who we are and when we do and who we think we should be different and never are satisfied.

I remember I felt like this never satisfied, never having fun being someone to fit into the mold of others and trying to fit into the world, but I never could fit in I was different and this was prevalent. And I lived like I was different. I build myself stronger, but somewhere along the way like everyone else midlife lose sight of life, we accomplished a lot, but are we complete. We are divided more then ever before and why.

We have situation of ISIS, but we are just as bad as them, they are just more extreme. They kill, we kill. There views aren't right I don't know what is going on there I don't care to watch the news because I would have views that are not my own. Everything stems from hatred and it is war. Why do we have to fight, they are just angry and pissed at everything somewhere they were wrong and like a dictator they want to destroy everyone they got put into that role maybe they were afraid of what the others in they group would do. It is hate. And is projected on every level so where is the love.

Where is that moment of being honest and build that trust, where is that moment saying I was with someone and I cheated even when you told your partner your feeling before hand, but we are afraid we are afraid to tell the truth we are afraid to mention what maybe on our minds, for all we are all human and we would rather know who they were with if they were with someone because they would grant me that right even if they weren't happy with it. If they did they would truly love you no matter what.

There was a time last year where I had to give everything up and truly throw everything away just to see if she loved me and she did not at least she didn't love me that way. And rather I was scammed or not or in relationships where I can be considered a fool for being in online situations, I learned a lot. I know that relationships deal with pain and pain is a part of life. Pain includes abuse rather it is you or the other. We feel we are right when we maybe wrong, or we maybe right it is said wrong.

Life is full of this we truly can't be honest and when we do we are deceitful, we don't truly tell them that we love them the most when we are honest with them when we tell them our innermost feelings and of something we have done rather then finding out the hard way. Sometimes we aren't happy with the truth because we are ashamed of it and can't face the shame. We run away and don't face the truth. We face a world that is built with deceit everything is done behind someone's back and we don't have honor to let them know what we do.

Know we are human, we all are human living this world rather we are tied with anger or not, and it is normal to feel hate at times and know that it hurts us that much because we truly love no matter how hard it is. Sometimes you have to be willing to lose everything in order to regain what you want in life.

Someone I know told me about the scene in The Dark Knight Rises last year and what he had to face to heal himself before he rose above the pit he was in. We all face those pits rather we think we are on top of the world or not. Rather we are full of hate or full of love we have to face life.

I think of the movie of Invincible how the injured man did everything he could do to kill others to find one man because he believed in comic books and searched for the one. He even helped him, but he was defeated and the pain he showed had showed. They did not deserve to die for one person.

People did not deserve to die for every event because they feel they have power. But we keep on living with all the pain everyday. We are all hurting and we go through pain rather we are with someone or not. But we all search to be loved and we all search to be accepted and we may not be accepted. But we should continue to work hard for that acceptance and we should work hard to accept ourselves when no one will accept us. It hurts at times to see others go through pain even though we all are suffering now. And we have each other to go through the pain and we lean on one another. Sometimes we have to face our fears and what other say and do to has and stand up. Hate exists. And as much as people try to deny it we need to embrace it.

So let them call you weird or stupid or dum, you may have that vision to shape the world, they may knock you down to the point that you stop believing in yourself. Keep fighting. Show them who you are. Show them your true nature. Show them that you are who you aspire to be. No one is going to hold you back from your dreams and don't let them discourage you. We all settle into a life that isn't for us and we settle because we are afraid to break free when we maybe all a prisoner of that abuse all for money or for whatever reason. Why don't we all help each other and work together to get ourselves stronger. Why do we feel that we have to be torn apart and afraid to face our abusers.

I and many millions on this earth are brilliant people and we can produce the worlds wonders yet we live in poverty and some are with people who abuse them or do not care about them because of their situation and why do they face it and it isn't just the victim drama their is something more it is the abuse they may give. And we all have had our abusers. Maybe we should truly be free and take our freedom back. We can't do it alone their are groups that can help. Their are support systems and the abuse doesn't have to go on. Many fear their livelihoods because of abusive people we see this in politics and we see this at home even amongst ourselves. There is medication that can treat moods and their is a telephone number to reach out for if you have been bullied.

Bullying goes in all forms now a days from school even in adulthood and even in relationships. When we don't stand up to the oppressors and we don't stand up for people who have been picked or abused and face whatever may come, we fall ourselves and we fall for the fact that we once cared about the world, but just have give up and take out all our pain on others. I face this battle everyday and we all have. I once was angry because of constantly getting teased and picked on by friends through years. And I'm sure that will continue because others will still tease me or discourage me from who I am and maximizing my true vision and even if internally it may go against the grain and even though I maybe following others, I seek to join the pack just to lead the pack. And many of us are wounded like wolves in a battlefield. Us wolves need resurrection and we need to form again. But we need to fight like hell to be healed.

Sunday, April 9, 2017

Love is Unpredictable and the message of a few out weigh the whole

There is a saying love is never on time and that is true. One day you maybe in a pool of your own tears, another day while sleeping people will try to reach you. And another when you wake up they are not there. Love is very unpredictable. Love can keep you a prisoner, but others cling onto you like no tomorrow, but the thought of them disappear and not being there sparks a lot of emotion brought up in you.

Why am I writing about love again? I feel I have to revisit where I started with this matter a year ago before I fell and I feel it's the nature of us we keep falling because we don't know what pain the other is going through rather we try to hide it or are busy with our own hurts and pains. And we don't know the damage we do.

Some hurt is inflicted because we feel very vulnerable and rather we hide in our emotions and never show that reality. We fight everyday rather it is through our addictions to mask that pain or hurt that exists because we don't want to deal with that beast that lives inside. That beast that makes us a horrible person to the world. But if we nurture that beast amazing things will happen.

I once heard a story where a Buddhist monk found a Buddha that was hidden in clay and he chipped at it. The more he chipped and worked he thought he was damaging it, but the more he say the gold. Little did he realize it was hidden from a war that had taken place and they hid the beauty they didn't want to see any more. Until that day it was seen. and when look he saw this beautiful statue all in gold in the middle of that area.

No matter who you are you might be that gold statue and are afraid of who you are and you may have your inner beauty buried in clay. You maybe hidden in the ugliness of your outer shell. And you may want that side to never be seen because it was scared and it is wounded so that you have a bandage on it.

When the gold shows, our inner beauty shows and our true nature is released and we can truly be who we are without any fear. We can not be afraid since we are our true essence. This is forgotten at times and we start to hide, but know we shouldn't be afraid whatever challenge we face. No matter how we fall, no matter who makes us feel like crap, no matter who tries to destroy our true essence no matter what the reason.

We all have a true potential to be great, it's just some of us are buried and think we can not get what we are truly worth and this is with love, money, or anything else in life. And we settle or drown ourselves with the decay of who we once were.

Know that there is a gem of who you are, no matter who you are. And I know some have a negative mind set and are just wondering why they seem to attract what they attract. And others just attract by mood and being there.

I was down last night, I was down hard not going into detail, but if it's one thing I know change the tune of the music. Don't settle in with the crap you usually do. Change your tune.

Maybe you like your music and maybe you are not going anywhere and are attracting your situation that you usually do. Once you change your tune you change your mood and you mentally change your situation. Thinking that you can do better. Whatever you put in your mind can transform who you are.

As for the unpredictability. It is easy to fall love and it is easy to fall out of love, but the attachment is harder as I have learned. We are meant to love and be satisfied. We work through our differences and many times in relationships our needs aren't being fulfilled and we ask ourselves the hard questions is that relationship worth the fight? Do we feel our needs aren't being met and do we have what we truly want in life?

Our lives were meant to be better than it is. No matter what we face as hard as what it is. We keep on suffering with our daily lives no matter who we are, but we live through that pain. And in love or not. We all share the same predicament. Some pain is unbearable that we have to be true to ourselves no matter how bad the pain is no matter how much we don't want whatever we face.

But as the Phantoms say, "We will rise." No matter what we face, we have to truly follow our path. Not the path that someone wants us to follow. We have to go on what our instinct will follow and should there be a way if destiny guides you back so be it. And this is not just for one person, this is for all of us. Maybe there is a love that has been lost in life and maybe you feel like you are going in another direction when they feel like things are great. And you wonder why.

It is just like the wind. Your mind is like the wind, It travels the length. It touches who you want to be by your side close and you want to be by your side. This is why the people attract who they do. This is why the abused will attract the abuser. Everything offsets the balanced based on the mood. And when you can tap in to something great to show who you are without any fear anything holding you back you live and you will not be afraid to live.

And this goes to all the wars in the world and the one in Syria and Russia and the US. There is so much hate in the world that we have forgotten to love and forgotten how to be free and how to let others be free because we have our oppressors rather they are in our own town, we live with them or them hold all the fucking militaries in the world or they are our government. We have forgotten to be free and yet many of us fight for our rights and it is all over the world and when we are living in all this hate and we stick to ourselves and are in our own little worlds we have forgotten to love and we fight so hard for it that many have died in the name of love.

I am going to say this speaking my mind. Hate and negativity exists, there are many who fight just for their views because they are afraid and you know what we are all scared. We are all afraid of something. And some of us hold things in afraid to speak afraid of what they know and afraid to share with their world for criticism. And they are afraid to take a stand for what they believe in including me and we hide with our masks everyday thinking the world will be a better place and it never is. It's dark, it's cruel and it's damn well nasty and it hurts. People will take money from you, kill you, Kill a city, even kill 6 million maybe more all for what for hate because they are different and what because of this damn world faces every difference and yes we are different we should accept our differences it makes us unique and it makes the world unique.

Every time we fight a war, we fight the ghosts of ourselves and we are reminded of the pain we all once faced all in our DNA and is this all worth it. Is all worth it.

We have faced bullying and other problems and we are afraid to just stand up and we just accept it, we either just accept it, become an abuser, or just end it all which has happened. It is reality. Where is that fight. Have we given up in a world that was supposed to be better. Have we all just been waiting and letting things happen. Have we been talking and are afraid to experience love. And since we are prisoners of it hurts.

We need to rise above whatever situation. Because we are angry they are angry. Because they are angry we are angry. Why don't we create what we want and have it. Why don't we create the life we want. As someone said we are human we can make mistakes. We are not nice and haven't been we are all on this earth scarred. And We need to repair those damages. We need to heal the world. We need to care for the sick and care for our enemy and yeah we may say kill them but that is one of our loved ones dead. War is like this.

We can live in that pain or as the song says we will rise above it. I have to say the past two days I lived in pain because it choose me. And it choose us. And I know this blog will reach maybe 25 to 50 share this let it be read. Because the power of a few will outnumber the masses and when our true nature of who we are as humans is revealed. We can all heal as one.

Monday, April 3, 2017

Update for April 2017

Last month, I released the audiobook called Kindle Your Writing: Tips to Make Your Amazon Book Great. It is an audiobook on how to make your book great. I am happy to say this project is done quicker then I expected.

Also, the audiobook called The Evolution of the Squared Circle: The Production of Professional Wrestling became one of the top 100 best sellers in the Television and Video section on Amazon.

March was a good month a lot of things happened behind the scenes. Even though I have not utilized it, I am now with the Podcasting company that I have used before. I am planning on a Spring and Summer of Podcasts as I start up again. I will discuss more of this on the Update part of what I will work on in April 2017.

There are 4 quarters in the year.
  1. January through March
  2. April through June
  3. July through September
  4. October through December
This is the beginning of the Second Quarter of the year and that is April. I ask the question did I accomplish all I set out to do and have I improved on what I was doing. The answer is Yes.

I wanted to release an Audiobook on The Evolution of the Squared Circle: The Production of Professional Wrestling and I did and also released the Paperback and audiobook of Kindle Your Writing: Tips to Make Your Amazon Book Great. And even though they are not released yet, I have been working on some artwork and have been in the work of planning what they next few months will be like.

What will the Next Few Months Be Like?

I have an idea. As this company involves and I have not been at it yet. I would like to work for doing another book. I haven't decided what I want to do yet, but I will want to work on another paperback. This will be my first big writing project in a year. After I went through my growing pains last and went through a crises, I bounced back.

Last year I got sick of the process I just wanted to do blogs, but this year I want to incorporate what I learned from my life experience and apply it.

I want to do more paintings and I want to release more products as per shirts, mugs, etc. based on my artwork.

This is like the beginning of the year for me and as the time for Spring, it is the time where things grow and I plan on growing, but I need to go back to basics and work on new material and I work to nurture the old.

I may take a break from art just to do spring cleaning so look at my post from Let Go to see what I may be selling.

In away things are changing. I transformed what this company is doing. Now we are incorporating art into it so it is not just writing.

I plan on hiring two new writers in the next month or so. One for this blog and One for the other. One will discuss on the various projects I will work on concerning writing or art. The other will discuss about wrestling and art. And some roles will be TBD. But this company will grow. It has room for introducing the products you may want.

I'm also with Patreon where new artwork can be available for show there.

I have a lot of things in the works and next is a plan to get there. I am getting prepared for the 4th Quarter of the year. And even though it may not exceed to great lengths I will grow the business. And start it.

Even though this is a basic overview, I am working in reverse pretty much. I am strategizing in April through June when I should have been strategizing in January through March. But I was resting and planning on  products to release and get myself back in shape and focused as I am finding my grove again. And certain things you have to move on from and just repair which I will do. And as I said I will rebuild again as Seth Rollins has. And as you can see with Seth Rollins he is not one hundred percent, but he fought. I am not one hundred percent financially and still suffering financially, but the storm is coming to an end as I will start putting a dent in what I need to put a dent in as I rebuild.

There are many things I would like to rebuild and rebuild that is broken as we all have repairs to do. Some things may never get repaired and some you have to just let go.

April is the month to sort and prepare to clear the air and get stuff out of the way and start for a new beginning. It is a start to release what is old and begin again.

Spring is that season. As we go through our cycles. What needs to be cleared and what needs to be gone through. In the coming months this will be apparent as this season comes to fruition.

Next month I will discuss all that I have worked on and keep you posted. As for the blogs, I will keep you posted, I will post.

It will be a rebirth and a beginning of something new and it will be the birth of something great. We have survived the Winter, now its time for Spring.

Memorial Day: A Tribute to Our Fallen Soldiers

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